OMG

So I just read my last post...So much has changed since then!! I got rid of the douche, and have fallen madly in love with a dork and am now living with him. I'm so happy to not be with such a manipulative person! One day I will tell you all the mean things he did to me. Today, however is not the day.

I miss you, sweet tea and cigarettes...


I am at work now, but will do my best not to neglect you anymore, dear non-existent readers....

So now my boyfriend has stopped even acting remotely interested in having sex. I feel like this is some retarded test he's come up with. He's still really snuggly and affectionate with me, just no sex. I don't like it. One bit. He asks me tonite if i was going to tell him what was wrong and I told him no. Then he's like "Do you enjoy being a puzzle?" I guess because most girls would have been bitching about stuff like that. I like sex with him A LOT. He knows this. However, I don't always wanting to be the initiator, you know? Sometimes, secretly, I want to be the girl.

So today sucked. I called my boyfriend and went over to see him. I brought him food, and then his roomate needed a ride to work. My boyfriend had to go out to talk to his boss anyway so he took him to work and said he'd be back in a couple hours. So two hours later, he calls (i'm still at his house watching tv) and says he's on his way home but he's gotta stop and talk to someone else. Then i get a text saying "Eagles interception!" from him. He's at a bar, but says that he'll be home soon. I'm starting to get a little disgruntled. Anyway he finally gets back about 4 hours after he said he would and he's drunk. Then he proceeds to pass out. I just feel like that was so disrespectful.
Oh and then i was going through his messages (somehow i feel not too bad for doing this because i caught him going through mine the other day) and what do i find but a picture message of his ex's tits that she has sent him. I'm not really sure what i'm gonna do about that one.

SO Secrets

I secretly want to get married and have babies with my boyfriend. It's gotten where it's all i think about, my wedding and being pregnant. I go to wedding etiquette websites and the David's Bridal site to pick out dresses. I play with the nonexistent engagement ring on my bare ring finger. I think about how great it will be to have cravings and a big round belly.

My boyfriend (not so secretly) "doesn't believe in marriage." He at least doesn't want to get married. He does not want babies. I secretly have been trying to change his mind. I'm thinking hypnosis or subliminal messages. I secretly really want him to come up with the idea to do it on his own.